From being “too sensitive” to “using my sensitivity as a gift” - A glimpse into my journey of healing
There used to be a time when I could not bear to be social because it was draining and exhausting. I would feel lonely and alone in my struggles.
I would struggle with feelings and pain that were not even mine to begin with. It was more painful because no one understood me or what I was going through.
I would feel so much that most of the time it was painful like physical pain searing through my body. I was called “too sensitive” or “ajeeb (weird)” because I would talk about feelings and intuition and dreams like they were real because they were real to me. I could feel emotions so strongly like you would feel a person or an object.
I gradually learnt that it was unacceptable to most people, that its not okay to talk about your feelings. So I shut down and with time it created a huge split within me. I would be a completely different person socially but I knew deep down that wasn’t me.
With time, I began to lose touch with the real me. The emotions kept affecting me, I kept ignoring them and they kept growing like poison in my body which led to physical pain and illness later.
On the surface, I started to feel like an “imposter” and I could no longer fathom why.
I couldn’t make genuine connections with people because I no longer had any connection with myself. I didn’t know what being connected felt like because you need emotions to feel connected and I had shut that box down.
India is on a 21 day lockdown to fight with corona virus along with many other countries of the world. Below are a few things for self care that you can practice everyday for a healthy mind, body and soul.
1. Practice Healing
This is a good time to spend this lockdown period doing the 21 days healing cycle.
If you are trained in any healing modality, please practice it for self healing for 21 days.
If you are not trained in any healing technique, follow my guided meditation for self healing. (link given below).
2. Send healing to Mother Earth everyday for at least 5 to 10 minutes.